​In a secret romance with doubts

By Modester Chinonyelum

Spill me like a gin unto the earth
Let my blood leave the ground brown
That is how I bury myself in oblivion
There is a railway running through my heart
A dark train in a tunnel
This shadow is a light leading me through 
 
My body is an unusual temple
Desecrated by blasphemous teeth and tongue
These sins are bracelets on my teeth
I cannot be rid of them
Like a deer I flee from these murderous lions
As these little demons chase their prey

Hurdles of doubts on this path push me down
But my legs outweigh my will to stand
My hands stretch to salvation
There is a fire burning in my soul
Like a drunk staggering home, I give up not
But everywhere pulls me in like a grave
 
This struggle eats my soul away
Bit by bit, till I'm all crumbs and bones
What a time to be a buffet
Tonight, I dine with my army of mistakes 
Yet I would become the gourmet

Writer’s Biography
Modester Chinonyelum is a creative writer from the suburbs of Abakaliki, Ebonyi State, Nigeria.
 
With her keen interest in creative writing, she contributes to a weekly column at Citizen's Advocate, a local media outlet in Abakaliki. In addition, she led a debate team in her secondary school days and wrote articles for the school press club board. She also served as an Editor for the school magazine where her writings were published.
 
Since 2018, Modester has created content on lifestyle and societal issues, having learned the fundamentals of Copywriting, serving as an assistant under an expert. She has written over a hundred blog posts for websites.
 
She is an alumnus of the 2021 SprinNG Writing Fellowship. While she aspires to get published by journals and contribute to more literary platforms, her poems can be found at Mirakee (mercurial), a writing-based social platform.
 
Her writing career started from childhood as she spent most time reading novels and writing stories.