You are standing in a room where a song is growing inside your belly, till it rests on your lips, till it fills the room like the aroma of mellowed love. You sway & the rhythm rushes you into the outstretched arms of the room, into God I mean. The wind slaps softly your hair & now you are dancing with God outside, under the mystic droplets of the rain. God is holding you really close like a gemstone, your firm breasts pressed against the expanse of his chest, their songs electrifying his celestial mind. You touch the hunger in his eyes—raw. Damn. God. Wants. You. Badly. This is the primal cry that tessellates nature’s balance, to want & be wanted is the reason you are now in the garden of bliss, God chasing you like someone would chase after the heartbeat of his dreams.
You fake a fall (with God this is perfectly okay) & he bends & scoops you into his firm arms, the music in his praline eyes is the star that leads you home & home is all you’ve ever wanted. You touch Gods heartbeat & it tingles something dazzling & thrilling in yours. This feels so good & you moan & laugh. With God it is okay to unwrap & stretch your laughter—God knows the perimeter of your sleek laugh. & God bends to pollinate the flower growing on the tips of your lips with his & as his tongue invents a new song in your mouth, you agree God would not yell at you in Walmart or leave you stranded inside the womb of nowhere. God’s hands are now tracing the geography of your body, worshipping & (re)discovering your softness, your essence. God’s hands are soft, unlike his that punched the little life growing inside into a pool of grief. But God is vapour—you shake your eyes open only to feed them with the scars sitting quietly on your window as dawn walks in on you.
Othuke Umukoro is a poet & playwright. His demons have appeared, or are forthcoming in The Sunlight Press, Brittle Paper, AfricanWriter, Eunoia Review & elsewhere. His debut play Mortuary Encounters, (Swift publishers, 2019) is available here. When bored, he watches Everybody Hates Chris. He is on twitter: @othukeumukoro19